If you’re here reading this with me, let’s just collectively say WOW! It’s been exactly two months since I’ve published a blog post. This hiatus was definitely not intentional. Well, at least it didn’t start off that way. At first, it was because I didn’t have the motivation to finish posts I already had written that just needed photos to complete the post. Then I told myself, I have nothing new to share so why bother? And finally, it got to the point where I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’d burned out.
I know exactly how it happened but at the same time, I actually was pretty shocked. For most of my life, I’ve identified as a writer. And on top of that, I always have something to say! So why did I need this hiatus? Why did I feel so lost?
Firstly, I felt defeated. In January, I fell into a mental slump and I couldn’t pull myself out of it. Thankfully, I had most of my February blogs already scheduled and ready to go, so I told myself that I had time to get my shit in order before March marched in. (Ha, I made a funny.) But then the time came when I needed to pull myself up and get motivated, I couldn’t do it. I mentally could not do it. If you have ever experienced any kind of anxiety or depression or the like, you know that sometimes you just can’t do what you want to do.
Somewhere between February and March, I started to feel inadequate. I questioned my skill and ability and I questioned everything right down to the nitty gritty of who I am on a personal level. So began my official hiatus. I started a journey to figure out my direction, my path through life. But this is also when the bulk of the planning for my second styled shoot was occurring. It was my lifeline.
There is nothing more rewarding as a photographer than planning and executing a styled shoot. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE photographing real weddings! And I realize that sometimes styled shoots just aren’t accurate or realistic to what’s actually attainable for a real wedding. But a styled shoot exists almost solely to push your ability as a photographer. Not only does it test your imagination and photography skills, it also tests your ability to coordinate and plan a theme with a team of vendors. The day a fantastic group of ladies and I came and collaborated together on my second styled shoot will always be remembered. It was the day that I finally started to feel like my true self again. I felt free.
So here we are – April. Obviously, I was still on my hiatus for the first week or so of the month, but that changes today. Taking this time to wrap my head around life, to get re-motivated, and to start fresh – this is exactly what I needed to do! I have the motivation to continue educating and sharing information for my couples and other readers. And I can’t wait to get my wedding season started so I can get back behind the camera!
The only way I can think to end this supposed Motivational post is to plea with you all out there:
If you ever start to feel yourself pulling away from something that you love, please, just take a break from it. Set a tentative date to revisit your passions and start with a fresh mind and heart. You’ll truly thank yourself for the break. Because sometimes you just need a minute.